The thing is, this photo is safe. It's controlled. It's my way of putting myself out there in a way that may be slightly manipulated but makes my fragile self-esteem stay relatively intact thanks to a little bit of glue and a whole lot of medication. What I can't control however is my book and the reviews and comments that are slowly trickling in.
When I wrote the book, I didn't think it was going to be an award winning collection of short stories from one of the world's best undiscovered talents. No! Of course not! I expected people to slowly start to connect with it and then, after 30-35 days, I would receive a contract from a top, Hollywood agent and I'd be on my way to literary and sitcom fame. But, here I sit on my couch with a stain of Coke Zero on my shirt and the remnants of hope lingering in my heart.
Throughout the past couple of days though some people have been weighing in their opinions and, good or bad, I respect them. People are seeing glimmers of potential in the writing and that is way more than I could have hoped for. So, my haters are my motivators - my lovers are procrastinators. I don't know...I made that last part up and it sounds a little too risqué and slutty for my liking but I am not clever enough in this moment to change it, but you get the point.
First up, is a guest blog that I did for the very funny and successful author, Stephanie McAfee. You can check it out here and while searching around, look into Stephanie's book series. Creative, clever and down right Southern charmingly fun - Stephanie has a good spirit and a knack with writing that has really resonated in the literary world.
Then, I got a random alert that someone had written about my book from Before Sunrise Press. I was pleasantly surprised because I had never heard of them, so it was good to see that the book was getting around; however, they give it mixed feedback. But, overall, they rank the book 7 out of 10. So, I can't be mad at that! Check out the review here - I think it's actually quite fair and paid me enough compliments to keep me from crying in the shower.
Last, but not least, is an upcoming review from Booktuber (Youtubers who review books) "Jesse the Reader". Jesse's youtube channel was shared with me by a friend who recommended that I reach out to him because he is fun, clever and gives fair reviews, so I did that and Jesse has been cool enough to take a look and will give a review sometime in May. So, I will continue to take Xanax until that comes out so I can see if he hates it or loves it. In the video that you can see here, he mentions it briefly and how he'll be reviewing it soon. If you enjoy books and creatively edited videos, "subscribe" to his channel and support his efforts.
So, that's it...I continue to push forward and then wait. The book is still newly out and a lot more people have purchased and read it than I ever expected, so I can't complain. But, I do remain delusional enough to think I can do more. So, I'll continue to stick to it. In the meantime though, I need some ice cream cake to cope with waiting for my phone to ring from Hollywood!