Wednesday, December 29, 2010

"...and when we reach a good place, let's be sure to leave no trace, promise they won't track us down..."

I've decided that the best thing that I can be in life is adaptable. If my time on this planet has taught me anything, it is that life will always win. Life will throw you the most amazing curve balls and the more resistant you are to the changes that happen in life, the harder things will be for you. The perfect situation does not exist. The perfect person or family or friend does not exist. You have to walk in the door, see people for who they are and choose to stay or keep it moving.

I get frustrated by my lack of emotions with things in life. It's not that I don't feel, it is that I have been forced to hold it all in. I am the voice of reason, I am the "go to" guy for advice. So, I just don't feel anything because I represent stability. I am not trying to throw a pity party for myself because it is just how things are but I sometimes wish I were able to feel more. I never run wild with emotions. I never have those extreme highs of excitement. It just doesn't happen for me.

In my life, I want the people around me to know that they can be and that they can do more than what they feel that they are limited to doing. No one stops you but you. I get so frustrated when people make choices to stifle their life and they remain blissfully unaware. I don't judge them but I am not going to coddle them. I'm not going to force anyone to do anything but if you ask my opinion, I am going to speak honestly and openly. Not because I am a jerk but because I want you to know that I care and caring for someone can sometimes hurt their feelings.

With all of that said, guess what?! Yes, I am home for Christmas. Nothing like the stark realization of a 24+ hour plane ride to get me blogging out what I think in a random rant. It has been good being home and the weather has been nice and cold. I got a new camera and now all I need is to book some new vacations.

For 2011, what can I expect? I expect that I will completely skip January 1st because I will be on a plane hopping time zones but beyond that, I know that there will be changes that forever shape the future. With every year, there always are. How will I cope with them? Time will tell. The only thing that I can do is see the reality of a situation and move forward.

Friday, December 17, 2010

"...pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing, you're f*cking perfect to me..."

The Christmas season is upon us and that means one thing: I am going home! I was not sure if I was going to be able to go this year but I bit the bullet, bought the ticket and BAM! Off to America, I go!

I love Australia but I cannot imagine a completely warm Christmas. I know that I am from Florida but it is, at least, Florida in Winter. It makes a difference. I need the chill to feel like it is Christmas.

Ok, so this week, I did two incredibly awkward things. First up, check out the video below to see me being a trapeze daredevil. I had the chance to take a course in trapeze and it hurt so freaking bad but was amazing. I did not even think about it until I got to the top of the platform and even then, I just had to jump. Sometimes, you can't think about things too much. You just have to do it! I recommend it to anyone.

The next thing that I did was much worse. So, a friend invited me to her place for dinner and her parents are visiting from the UK. So, everyone has dinner, drinks, chatting and playing a board game and her family gets a call that a relative has passed away at home. So, the mood changes and her Mom is a bit upset and leaves the room for a bit.

So, her Mom regains her composure and rejoins the group at the table and makes a reference to me calling my parents in the US. Well, at the time that this happened it was middle of the night US time and I say, very innocently, "Oh no, we can't call them at this hour, they'd think someone died!" AWKWARDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

The following three seconds were the most excruciating seconds of my life. I, literally, covered my face with my hands. I didn't know what to say or do! Finally, because these people are sick and twisted Brits, they began laughing hysterically by my awkwardness. I wanted to crawl into a hole and well, die. It was so bad.

I quickly decided that I should leave and I went to the Mom and apologized profusely and she told me not to worry but I like to panic. Nonetheless, I feel ok about it today because there was zero intent in my comment. Normally, I enjoy a good, calculated awkward moment but not one in which I didn't see it coming.

Now, I am off to Florida for hopefully, more awkward moments. To everyone, Merry Christmas and let's see what 2011 has in store for us all.

(Taking a leap of faith. Or, stupidity.)

Sunday, December 5, 2010

"...oh, you creep up like the clouds and you set my soul at ease..."

Last weekend, I completed my Australian excursions for 2010. My goal for this year was to try and hop around the country and see as many spots as possible and I have now checked Perth off of the list.

If you think that Sydney is far away from the US, well...add on almost 5 more hours of flight time and you will get to Perth. It is the most isolated, capital city in the world. And, when you are there, you can feel the isolation. The people tend to flock to the comfort of air conditioned rooms because the heat is oppressive. It was well over 100 degrees before noon even hit.

The highlight of the trip was being able to see and swim in the Indian Ocean. I never even contemplated in life that I would be able to do this one day. I took a ferry out to Rottnest Island and grabbed my snorkel gear. I headed out to a secluded beach where I was completely by myself except for a huge pelican that was catching fish in the waves and I decided to test the waters.

The water was freezing but I told myself that I had to do it. So, off I went. I dipped into the icy, blue waters and literally just feet off of the shore were tons of fish. It was amazing. My body shivered from the cold water but I was bound and determined to snorkel.

Afterwards, I plopped down on the sand and took a long nap. In the middle of nowhere, just me and the sounds of the Ocean. It was a nice retreat.

My trip to Perth was pretty easy going. If I have learned one thing over the last two years of life, it is that planning things out can be your biggest mistake. Go with an idea of what you want and then just see where life takes you. I have always been so structured and I still am but sometimes, you have to just let it go and see what adventures are in store. With Perth, I did just that and I ended up having an amazing experience.

What's next? Well, in 2 weeks, I am off to "Home Sweet Home" America. I am ready to just lounge around and have people make decisions for me. Basically, I just want people to feed me. But, before I go home, I have a Christmas party for work and I am going to take trapeze classes for a day! Until the next adventure.

(Outside Fremantle prison)

(Being dumb with new Perth friends.)

(On Rottnest Island in the Indian Ocean.)

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