Saturday, November 28, 2009

" what if this world just throws me off the edge, my feet run out of ground..."

You never know what life has in store for you, right? I guess that the quicker I let go of trying to control things, the better off I will be. I think that Australia has taught me that. I control nothing beyond my reactions to the events that take place around me. I have learned to put panic to the side a bit and just roll with the punches. As things stand now, I am currently within my last two weeks in Sydney. I came, I saw, I conquered, kind of. I have been working a lot lately. Which, for those of you who know me, is typical. I like to work, to be busy. So, no issues there. As it turns out, I may have worked so much that I could potentially be returning back to Australia. Nothing is set in stone yet but it could be a great opportunity for me to return to the land of Australia. It feels a bit weird because when I came here, I had 2009 dedicated to my journey in Oz but if it continues, I welcome the challenge. Order number one will be to get an air conditioner. Why this place lacks AC, I will never know. I feel like I need to expose them to higher energy bills but better sleep at night. Sleeping hot sucks. I can cope for now but sometimes, I wake up and want to punch things. But, maybe that has nothing to do with the heat but more so with the fact that my clock say 5am. Boo. So, now I sit here in the heat, putting my things in order for my return to Florida. I am excited to go home. We will see where life leads next.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

"...each and every single day, I know I'm gonna have to eventually give you away..."

Today, Sydney is hot. It has topped off at about 106 F/42 C. It reminds me of when I first arrived and how miserable it was because AC is a rare treat. As I type this, the sun is setting and a small gust of wind is coming through the window, so it is welcomed. This week is Thanksgiving in the good ole' US of A but I will be "down under". So, I had to celebrate right by practicing my abilities on a fake turkey. It was a bit chewy but it should do the trick. As Thanksgiving arrives, it reminds me that slowly but surely my time in Australia is coming to a close. I go back and forth about how I feel about that but overall, I feel good. Who knows what life ever has in store for us, so if I have learned anything, it is to try and go with the flow a bit. Just see where life takes you. I have always had plans and been disappointed in more cases than one, so I think I just need to live in the present and see where that takes me. Plus, for whatever reason, Australia has always played a role in my life and just because this initial journey is over, doesn't mean that I won't be back. I feel a connection to Australia, so it will be my second home, I have no doubts about it. When I came here, I came to make true connections with people here and have a genuine experience and I have done just that. So, I know that I can hop off of a plane in Sydney at any time and have people here to call and visit. That is what has made this journey for me. So, for all my US people, enjoy Turkey Day. As for me, I am going to go watch a Christmas Tree be lit in 100 degree heat!

Saturday, November 7, 2009

"...evolve your destiny child and you'll never walk alone..."

Tonight was the first time since I have been here that I went back and read past blog entries. It has been an interesting experience. I realized how non-chalant I was in my approach to coming to Australia and I think that that lack of expectation has been my saving grace. Australia has been tough and amazing all at once and there is not one instance that I can think of to change. No regrets in any decision. My whole life, I have felt like I deserved less than others or that I wasn't as good as others. That has changed. Instinctually, I fall into ruts and depression but I have to be aware and diligent now. I have no excuse. I have moved to the other side of the world and done perfectly fine. Struggles came and struggles went but I remained. I remained here and persevered. I win. No one did it for me. I don't know what life has in store for me. I can worry but it is pointless. I have to relinquish that control. Time is fleeting and to ponder that which we have no control over, is useless. In my mind, I am moving on to the next phase of life, what it holds, who knows?
(Sculpture by the Sea event on the Bondi to Tamarama Coastal Walk)

(Living on the Ledge)

Sunday, November 1, 2009

"...all that noise, and all that sound, all those places I got found..."

This weekend, I took the little, Aussie sisters to a dog show. Now, some may think that this sounds lame but it was no ordinary dog show. It was the "World Dog Games", which is like the Olympics for dogs. It was actually an enjoyable time, so don't knock it until you try it. While I was there, the realization that my Aussie time is almost up started to kick in. I have no reason to whine or complain about it ending because this year has been a whirlwind. I didn't come in with many expectations but it has been everything I wanted and nothing that I expected. I came here to prove to myself that I could do it and I have. When I begin to panic about what comes next, as in, "What will I do?" or "Where will I go?", I have to remember that I came here not knowing a soul. I had no place to live, no job, and it all worked out. I have learned that I do not buckle under pressure, I don't give up, and I keep on moving. As I worry about what life has in store for me next, I realize that none of us ever know. We can plan and have an idea but don't write something in stone until it has happened because life changes at the drop of a dime. So, with that said, I am going to continue to enjoy my Australian adventure and see where life takes me next.

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