Sunday, September 20, 2009

"...I feel stressed out, I wanna let it go, let's go way out spaced out and losing all control..."

Within the past week, I have found out some potential news that could cut my time here in Australia short. I won't go into it much but if I have to go, I will go. I will walk away with no doubt and no regret. I won't be sad, frustrated, or annoyed because it just means that I have a new reality. I can't dwell or ponder but simply hope for the best. Someone recently said to me about when life throws a problem your way that you are supposed to pray, hope, and not worry. It is good advice. My time in Australia has taught me that we have zero control over what life hands us. We only have control over how we respond to those events. We give up, we stay still, or we move forward, stronger than before. If I have learned one thing through being here, it is that no situation is too great to overcome. We only fail when we allow ourselves to collapse and give up. Giving up is not an option when there is something that has to be done. When I think back on the time I have spent here in Australia, I have had a ton of curve balls thrown my way. Things have happened that have tested me as a person, someone who used to be filled with anxiety and stress and I have been humbled. Things will never faze me again as they once would have. So, if I leave soon, I leave knowing that I have had an experience that can't be replaced and I will not regret having come here. The video at the top of this post sums up the adventure that has been Australia. Within the next week or so, I will know my next step and whichever way I must go, I am ready.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

"...I don't want to spend my life jaded, waiting to wake up one day and find that I let all these years go by, wasted..."

Tonight, the wind is whipping and apparently the Aussie Spring is upon us. In Australia, the seasons start on the first of the month whereas ours begins on the 21st or the equinox. I don't get it but I am too tired to question it. I went today to the Sydney Fish Market and it was interesting. A long walk to get there but I had lunch and it was nice. After that, I mosied on down to Circular Quay and sat in the grass like an old Pee-Paw because I was tired. For the past couple of weeks, work has been demanding. I like being busy, so no complaints but I needed a restful weekend. I've booked myself a trip to New Zealand and I am super excited. I will go on the New South Wales Labor Day weekend, which is October 2nd-5th. I fly into Christchurch and then from there, I will take an additional flight down to Queenstown because everyone has said that that is the place to see. I was walking to get lunch the other day at work and I had the thought about how I finally feel so much better about life. It just took me making an effort to get "un-stuck" and now the opportunities and options seem limitless. I waver, of course, because it is human nature but I can't believe how much I have seen and overcome in such a short time. I know that there is even more to come and I am ready for the adventure.

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