Thursday, August 6, 2009

"...sending positivity, crossed the globe and seven seas..."

This week I had a realization and it made me feel kind of weird. I have had to travel to the other side of the world and leave behind my "normal" life in order to feel some sort of happiness that I never allowed myself to feel before. I know that it sounds strange and I don't mean it in a bad way but I never relaxed at home. I worked two jobs and went to the gym six days a week and was busy and bored all at the same time. I stressed about money, I stressed about being responsible and doing what was right and I have let my guard down a little. When people ask me to go somewhere, I go. For "normal" people this may make no sense but for me, it is all a learning and growing experience. I came here for this and to push myself to a new level. I guess that I had to prove to me that I could go somewhere far from everything that I knew and make it and I have. I'm not being boastful, it is just how I feel at this moment. I have dreamed of coming and living in Australia since I can remember and to be in the midst of it is surreal, unreal, and everything in between. If I walk away from this experience with one thing, it is patience and the ability to take a look at a situation and realize that nothing is unattainable as long as you remain diligent and focused. Last year, at this time, was a low point in life for me and my entire family and to be here one year later seems amazing. I am trying to track this journey as much as possible because never in life do I want to be sitting down and feeling sorry for myself because I did this and I made this happen on my own. I read an interesting article today in a magazine and it said about how when life gets us down, we can focus on the negative or aim for the positive and the hope that comes with it. I never subscribed to that kind of logic but maybe that is what has kept me down. No more and I have to stick to it. It seems like so many people that I know or so many people in my family do not realize the potential that they have and that has been a huge fear of mine. Not realizing that there is more to life than just the hum drum of everyday. I remember in high school people were talking about what they wanted to be or do and I had two thoughts in my head 1.) to live and work in Australia and 2.) to not lead a mediocre life. I have #1 down. Let's see how the rest goes...




(Finally, I am the wierdo on the train for once!)


(Trains like to make me wait!)






10 comments:

Rachael said...

This post made me smile. Are you in my brain? I swear, everytime I read your blog it's as if you are speaking just to me, saying the words I so desperately need to hear. I'm sure loads of other people are in the same boat or feel the same way, but I like the way it makes me feel. Thank you (as always) for sharing yourself with us. You really do inspire me in more ways than I could ever say and I thank you for that SO much. You are not mediocre, my friend. And at the rate you are going, you're life won't ever be mediocre either. Rock on!

Tia said...

Cool seeing you crazy! Life is all about the fun. Go find it and live it up. You are only young once. Enjoy your freedom and HAVE LOTS OF FUN! :)

You are living the dream.

Love, Tia

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