"...I never thought that I, had any more to give, pushing me so far, here I am without you..."
I woke up extra early today and decided to go down to the beach and do the "coastal walk". It is a couple of miles long and runs down the major beaches here in Sydney. Each time that I go on this walk, it makes me feel so grateful to be here. It is awesome. This past Thursday, I hit my three month mark in Sydney and it is hard to believe. This "pipe dream" became a reality and sometimes when I wake up in the morning, I can't believe that I took the steps to get here. Before I arrived, people would say how this was "brave" or "crazy" and I just felt like it was something that I had to do. Last week, I was waiting for the train and I realized that this was, in fact, "brave" and "crazy" all mixed into one. I guess that I had to prove to myself that I could do it and I have done it and I am proud. I don't overtly praise myself often but I have told people for my whole life that I would do this and here I am. My time here has been interesting and I can tell that I am becoming more and more acclimated to my new environment because some of my niceness is fading away. Each morning, when I catch the train for work, I have to plan and plot how I am going to find a seat. Riding a train at 7:30 in the morning for 30 minutes standing up is no fun! So, the other morning, I jump on the train, find a seat, and claim it. About three stops later, this woman hobbles onto the train in a foot cast and no one gets up to let her sit down. So, I am sitting there thinking and the "angel" on my one shoulder says to me, "Ok, let this poor woman have a seat. She has a broken foot and can't stand for the whole trip!" Then, the devil on the other shoulder says, "Hell no! You worked hard to find a seat on the train. She is the fool for hurting herself!" Ultimately and luckily, the decision was made for me when within the thirty seconds it took me to have that thought, some other kind soul let her sit. Whoooo, that was a close call. You don't understand those trains. You would have pondered your niceness, as well. I am off to Melbourne on Thursday and I bet it is going to be way colder than I imagined. Sydney has gotten a little nippy and Melbourne is going to be worse since it is further South!
(Took a break from the walk and sat on the cliffs)
(Lifeguard flags that are on every beach here in Australia)